the shaman initiation
it's the one where your whole body is dismembered piece by delicious piece
and sometimes you have to watch
your bones are removed, stripped clean and put back in
sometimes they take your head, sometimes your eyes
and exchange them for the visionary kind
the ones that see inside the center of your forehead
you can't be a healer 'til you have been healed
some otherwordly being may light a fire and burn your fat in an oversize pot
you'll wake up in the place where your friends have been mourning
“i think i am lost i think while i was lying dead they cut open my body, took my insides out and put a little snake in there" you might say
that's just how it is having a mystical death
that may include contemplating your own skeleton
here's the point, you gotta rip things totally apart before you put 'em back together
you basically have to DIE in the most horrific way possible before you can say you know shit about life
others may call you crazy after but they never had to sit there and watch the flesh peeled from their lily white asses
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Being Frightened
Transcending the profane human condition:
There's something more you need to get through and it's not going to be easy.
You will take the cup and lie in a cave and you must not get up.
You must not break the web, you must not break the thread.
They will come at you like giant worms, like horses with men's heads, like burning fires.
You may see the dead walking and you will hear their bones rattle.
If you see and hear these things and are not afraid, you will never again be frightened of anything.
You will never be shown these things again, these things will not show themselves to you.
Now that you are strong, you are strong and you cannot lose strength.
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It's a mystery forever
How you laughed at the sea of Europa and all its loveless amoebas
Then crushed a hummingbird in your palm
How you jammed a thousand sunsets into an old tuna can
How you could tear down castles and build a rose garden with the same hands.
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That time the car looked like a Jackson Pollock goin' through the carwash
Smoking outside looking in it's not as fun as it used to be
Gone are the days when 100 Muppets pelted the crap out of the Monte Carlo
Smoking outside looking in it's not as fun as it used to be
Gone are the days when 100 Muppets pelted the crap out of the Monte Carlo